First let me say that, derby is constantly doing a number on my ego. There is rarely a month that goes by when I don’t question myself – do I really want to do this? But I always answer, yes, what else would I be doing? Nothing is as exciting as derby or as motivating to get me to exercise or as ego boosting when I do get something right. I haven’t found anything quite so challenging before or anything I love enough to work so hard for. Bottom line, my life without derby would be lacking something big. Even though I seem to be going no where with it, I can’t give it up. Another thing I always remind myself: I’ve come so far. Yes there is still so far to go, but I’ve put too much time & energy into this to let it go.
This was the week for the Level 2’s to be approved to skate Wednesday night with the big girls. Long story short I didn’t get approved & I actually ended up deciding I’m not ready anyway. So that is that – until next round. I will be working on my endurance so that I can stay in drills & be strong doing them so I will be ready for the next step when it is time. Getting stronger & increasing my endurance is imperative.
I have accepted that this goes much slower for me. Where most people go through the steps as they are meant to be done, I clear one hurdle each round of Minnows it seems. This round I will be happy to stay in Level 2 the whole time, while I improve my endurance. I hope by the end of it I feel ready to take on skating on Wednesdays. When it is time I intend to be ready.
*Photo is of my with my new haircut. I was ready for a change.